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Living for the Moments is a website that I developed in my head long ago but have never followed through on – until now. I don’t know why NOW is the time that I decided to go for it but it had recently been nagging my thoughts so I thought, why not? This is definitely a work in progress – a labor of love – as I collect my thoughts on sharing the memories that my daughter and I have made these past 15 years as we have navigated the waters of grief and loss after losing Mike, – my husband, her dad. I have never wanted this experience to define me and I have resisted it for a very long time, all the while trying to understand why so many years later the pain lingers, the tears still flow and if I’m being honest, why I am still so angry. Maybe I do need to let this define me in some way. It changed who I was and who I am trying to be. And perhaps, maybe I need to embrace the part of me that still hurts and maybe if I do that, letting it go will be easier.

I have heard that to be happy, one must show more gratitude. I AM THANKFUL. I am thankful that I am still here. I am thankful that I have a wonderful relationship with my daughter – that through it all – we’ve grown closer. I am thankful that we have had opportunities to explore new places together, experience new things and create new happy memories. Those memories are what have sustained me and what have always pulled me back from the edge. Grieving is a personal journey. We all have to find our own ways to cope. Our way was through escape. These adventures have always given us something to look forward to and look back on with happy recollection. Thank you for stopping by and for learning of our journey.